omy grace is getting cynical..
dis aint good cos i dont feel good...
it's nt dat im taking things for granted.. but i can alr slowly feel miself detaching miself frm physical connections n im so losing trust in every1 ard mi frm the recent spate of events n i dont feel like speaking to anione.. i dont wish to confide.. i dont wna doubt seriously.. den i quest wad im doing.. im losing purpose towards ****
pple r questioning mi why i took it up in the fers place... n i dno how to ans dem.. i went out wif a grp of guys n gal las nite hu couldn stop asking..
hate it sumtimes seriously.. all the appalled reactions.. even he's still surprised why i took it up.. why shld i even care in the fers place...but i so cant help it sometimes...

well mi T42 mentor will b speaking to mi in a month's time.. he will b doing reflection wif mi for mi RT n mi life... mayb i shld speak to him den... abit to late but better den nth... well apparently i can only speak to him abt it.. i sumhow jus trust n bliff him based on mi instincts... n becos i noe he will offer useful suggestions and advices n his perspective of mi wont change nevertheless..
he's prolly one of the most inspiring person i haf ever met(:

losing mi standing ground